Deep Thoughts: Friends

hmmm... maybe i do always want things to end. friendships. loves. my life even. or so i've been accused.

ummm... no. okay, the life part is true. but not the others.

just have no patience for people. that's all it really is. well, that, and no trust.

actually, i would like nothing more than an honest to goodness, closer than two states away, poke me in the belly, mock my clothing, share my beer, occasionally make my cell phone ring (damn thing never rings), real, live, not in my head, friend.

but real people are so likely to disappoint.

and i just hate being disappointed.

i'd get myself an imaginary friend, except i wouldn't trust them either.